Wednesday, January 17, 2018

Embodied Paradox

Wednesday of the 2nd Week in Ordinary Time
Saint Antony, Abbott (251-356)

St Antony Shunning the Mass of Gold, Fra Angelico 1435-1440

Saint Antony shouts this morning!

How is it that someone who sought with gusto (and succeeded) to build a life of solitude ends up revered throughout the ages!  His life is a parable of ‘the last shall be first and the first shall be last’!

We know a lot about him because of St. Anthanasius’ biography, Life of Antony…the primary source of which were his many visits to the desert monk.

I met a young man once who was a singer…and he mentioned, off-handedly, that to succeed in the business one had to become ‘ruthlessly self-promoting.’  I can still hear his voice.  I remember where the conversation took place.  I remember thinking, what an awful way to live.

The odd truth is that it is those who are ‘ruthlessly self-promoting’ that are almost guaranteed to end up in the dustbin of history!  And Antony…well, he prompts reflection by this 50-something, midwestern American woman, sitting at her laptop on a snowy morning, 1661 years after his death!  Go figure.  

Of course, I am not totally inexperienced in the art of self-promotion; it is an element in the air we breathe. But when I have confessed honestly from time to time that I (not so) secretly want to be famous…for some reason the confession usually invites laughter! I thank God for such friends!

He who sits alone
and is quiet
has escaped from three wars
hearing, speaking, seeing
but there is one thing 
against which he must continually fight:
that is, his own heart
     
-St. Antony the Great 
Sayings of the Desert Fathers 


St. Antony, The Embodied Paradox
Pray for me





Tuesday, January 16, 2018

Absentee Auditioning

Tuesday of the Second Week in Ordinary Time
1 Samuel 16:1-13


Where are we in the story?

So God relents after a long period of whining by the Israelites. 
Everyone else has a King, we want one too! 
Saul it is, and he totally looks the part
tall, majestic, strong and handsome.

Surprise!  Saul is a disaster! 
Soon we find Samuel grieving mightily for Israel under this King’s leadership. 
God sends Samuel (after telling him to cut out his own whining) to Jesse in Bethlehem.

Today’s text tells the story of the auditioning process.
(The thought brings up memories…bad memories)
All the sons of Jesse file in for a good ‘look-see’ by Samuel. 
There is plenty of
tall, majestic, strong, and handsome
but Samuel remembers what God instructed:


"Do not judge from his appearance 
or from his lofty stature,

because I have rejected him.

Not as man sees does God see,
because he sees the appearance
but the LORD looks into the heart."

I am so trained to see what I expect to see.
Such sight is its own blindness!

God’s command is perennial
Look into the heart
But to get there, there is so much to
  Look through
  Look beyond
  Look over
  Look underneath

Look in such a way as to uncover the heart
         Of an issue
         Of a conflict
         Of a person

When Samuel did, ‘the Spirit of the Lord rushed upon David.’

Simple enough lesson…I think...





Thursday, January 11, 2018

Not a Chance

Thursday of the First Week in Ordinary Time
Mark 1:40-45

We’ve only just begun. 
Still in chapter 1.
The Marcan Jesus in running shoes!

The Good News has broken in as evidenced at the Baptism.
The Spirit has led Jesus to the wilderness where he goes toe-to-toe with some pretty powerful forces (and wild beasts too) for forty days.
Jesus comes back to Galilee proclaiming more Good News.
As he walks along the lake he meets Simon and Andrew and they follow.
He meets the sons of Zebedee and they follow.
Jesus starts to teach in the synagogue and his authority is palpable…not so for the scribes.

Then in rapid fire:
an unclean spirit-gone
a mother-in-law-raised
and more unspecified demon castings and healings

Jesus comes,
Unexhausted,
to today’s encounter with the man with leprosy.

I am a leper
So disfigured
Contagious too
Will anyone
Ever
Be able to get close enough to ever KNOW me?
NOT A CHANCE

Jesus looks
What does he see?
He sees ‘NOT A CHANCE’
That’s what he has come to edit.

There is something universal in the leper’s internal dialogue:
Will anyone
Ever
Be able to get close enough to ever KNOW me?
NOT A CHANCE

Kyrie Eleison
Christe Eleison
Kyrie Eleison




Sunday, January 7, 2018

Hold the Sugar*

First Sunday of Epiphany
Baptism of the Lord (RCL Readings)
Mark 1:4-11
homily preached at St. Stephen's Episcopal Church


When I was the Palliative Care chaplain at St. Mary’s
I heard so many stories…
and I slowly came to understand what was actually happening.
To both of us…the teller and the hearer
Meaning was being made

I bet every one here has had that experience
Of telling a story…of your own
A series of real life events
That happened in real time
Events, that…at the time of their happening
May have seemed a simple unrelated string of events
And then…In the telling
Some sense of unfolding appeared
Like puzzle pieces just falling into place

That is the power of storytelling

Isn’t that a big portion of what we do here on Sundays?
We tell and re-tell and listen and re-listen
And because the Christian story is a living story
Because it is our story
It just keeps making new meaning?

Yesterday was the feast of the Epiphany
Which, once again, put an official end to the Christmas season
But I’m not ready!

I did pretty well this year hanging on to Advent
But Christmas is so impossible---
All the trappings
I can’t resist
I love it all!
The decorating…The guests…The gatherings…ALL the family…The cooking
And…I musn’t forget…the sugar
I take my Christmas with a thousand pounds of sugar

Now…Here it is the first Sunday of Epiphany
All I have to show for my ‘liturgical’ Christmas
is a giant sugar hangover

The narratives…the characters…the events and the settings!
All of it is just a blurr

But if storytelling is important to making meaning
I’d like to rewind…

Meet Mary
But  we will skip the sugary parts
…the blue robe…the crown and the halo
Imagine giving birth in a dirty barn
That is where it happened
Mary, whose womb carry’s the Son of God
The Christ-Bearer
The First Disciple…Imagine her there

No person, No place, No time is beyond the reach of God in Christ…it is that ‘YES’…a ‘YES’ like Mary’s…that God longs to hear

Meet Joseph
Usually depicted as quite a bit older
And a little stooped
Joseph…What did you get yourself into?
How remarkable that he listened to a message delivered in a dream
He has no speaking part…not a big talker…but listening
That he does well
And open too
Not afraid of the mysterious

God longs for us to be open and unafraid
To listen for his disturbing
and uniquely personal message

Meet the Shepherds
Living far away from regular soap and water
And away from manners and politeness
My guess is that guiding sheep was a quiet enterprise
In the quiet these shepherds honed their hearing
They had vigilantly listen for threats
And so they heard the call
They heard the angel’s message…Glory to God
And Peace…WHERE?
In a nearby feeding trough?
…And they HURRY

Jesus came eye-level with the human family. 
There is no Caste system here. 
Being a child of God has no requirements…just hear and hurry.

Meet Stephen
Just the next day…the church tells of Stephen. 
The Parish feast day…no sugar here!
This is a whole story
Telling the whole truth

God wants every bit of me.  God wants my whole life.
That is the truth.

Meet Herod
No sugar here either
Ego on steroids
Living in a world whose story is always the same
Competition
Kill the competition
Collateral damage…be damned…slaughter the innocents
That is the only way to be sure

Meet the Magi
From different regions
Of different colors
With Different mother-tongues
And yet in their wisdom they fool the likes of Herod
Resourceful in their journeying
And protective of what they know…but haven’t yet seen

Working together, those who choose love, are stronger than violence

Which brings us to John the Baptist…again…third time in four weeks!
Not just John the Baptist though

I was taught that the most important thing about Baptism
Is what God does

And you know how we like to talk about God being in us?
Which is nice and true…
But at Baptism, the language is different
we are welcomed into the life of God
We are baptized into Christ
Into his death as St Paul says
And we are raised from that water
And we are IN Christ…

Jesus in the Gospel today
Is raised out of that water
And just then the heavens are rent…torn apart
(that is a very forceful image)
And from the heavens comes the Holy Spirit
Descending like a dove
Now in just a couple verses this same Holy Spirit will be driving Jesus into the wilderness
So the descending part is more important than the dove part
(unless you are thinking of a dive-bombing, half-crazed dove;)
There is real power and energy in this scene

Rob and I have close family friends who are going through a rough time in their marriage.    The marriage is RENT... torn apart
There is no going back…
There is no ‘The way things were.’
There is only room for something new

In the Gospel today, The Heavens are torn apart
The word is SCHIZO…in Greek
Mark uses it only twice…
At the very beginning of his Gospel When God breaks in at the Baptism
And at the very end
When God tears apart the veil of the Temple at the death of Jesus
Schizo the word makes bookends around the whole story
This is a tearing apart that cannot be put back together again
There is no going back to religion as usual
Heaven and Earth are NOT opposing forces
God came in the flesh
So that in the flesh we might meet God
No Temple
No Holy of Holies
No ritual blood sacrifice
No transactions

Being baptized into Chirst
Means that we are invited into the story…the really BIG story
God’s story
Along with Mary, and Joseph, and the shepherds, Stephen, and the Magi
… Herod and the Baptist
Our stories belong to this same story!!!

But this baptism thing doesn’t take all at once
We have to let it unfold
And things will get torn apart from time to time

What in me needs rending?
What needs tearing apart?
Top to bottom
What needs to be broken
So that something new, and healthier, and holier might emerge in its place?

Answer: PLENTY
But there is time
Not ALL the time in the world
But time

I’ve been at it for 57 years now
On December 16th, 1960
My Baptism gave me a role
…a part to play in the drama of salvation
But it didn’t come with a script…no stage direction!

This is no Baptism a la John
This is Baptism by the Holy Spirit
And my friends…
Could that really be all we need to work out our scripts?
Maybe everything we need
And everyone we need to work out our scripts is right here?
Maybe we are each other’s script editors!
Maybe we are each other’s inspiration
…each other’s muse!
How we keep unfolding our baptisms?

When I was putting away all the Christmas stuff
I forgot one little ‘Jesus in the Manger’ sitting on a bookshelf
At first I asked Rob where he put the Christmas box 
I needed the tissue paper and all
and then it happened
…it took on meaning
I’ll keep it out!  It will remind me
That what broke in
On that cold and dirty and ‘not according to plan’ night in Bethlehem
And what broke in on that day by the Jordan River
Is always breaking in
Grabbing us, raising us up, calling us Beloved
And saying

YOU…YOU…are part of the STORY
GO TELL it!