Saturday, September 26, 2020

Payoff or Ripoff*


25th Sunday in Ordinary Time

Matthew 20:1-16a 


The more familiar a parable is

The more difficult it is to have it speak a fresh word

 

I can call to mind 2 familiar interpretations

…2 ways I have heard this parable preached

 

One way 

Is to hear it as a parable about Salvation

Maybe the parable is telling us that God doesn’t care if you’ve been working hard at your Christian vocation 

for years and years and years

Or… if you’ve ignored God all your life until the very end

And then after a good deathbed confession 

“WELCOME! we have been waiting for you!”

In fact…as the last line says…The last shall be first!

This makes it a parable about how ridiculously gracious God is.

That’s one way to hear the parable

 

 

Another way, is to understand this parable through a social justice lens

The landowner keeps going out to do more hiring

…throughout the day the landowner goes to the places where day laborers gather in the hope of finding a days work.

 

The landowner asks “Why do you stand here idle all day?”

 They answer

“Because no one has hired us”

It doesn’t say they were lazy, or that they took a long lunch to go home and          play video games

All we know is that they are still there

…still hoping for even a few hours work.

 

There is no judgment on why…at least not that I can see

…they simply weren’t picked

So we need to keep going…why weren’t they picked?

For some reason, those doing the hiring looked passed them.

Was it disability, skin color, did they look like they just got released from prison, was it the way they were dressed, or the language they were speaking? Whatever the reason, they were looked over.

 

This makes it a parable about the dignity of the worker
Perhaps it is about how the many (those chosen) 

sometimes have to contribute to the needs of the few

those who sometimes

Just don’t get hired

 

A gifted preacher could make either of these interpretations into a decent sermon

 

My problem with these interpretations

Is that they keep the text at a bit of a distance.

 

While I agree that it is important to keep the end in mind
because having the end in mind has a way

Of giving ultimate meaning to TODAY

…To my life and my choices TODAY

But there is nothing surprising in this.

 

And, while I absolutely agree 

that we need to work toward a more just society

A society where the dignity of work is available to all

And where roadblocks to hire-ability can be removed

 

This is also big and out there somewhere
it is a grand societal problem
But this is not to say that it isn’t super important…it is.

And we have ways to participate…we can vote, and advocate, and volunteer locally

I can name a laundry list of “shoulds” 
things I certainly need to be reminded of and challenged to take part in…

But there is nothing surprising

Nothing that catches me flat-footed and demands a change in me…in the way I think and see. 

 

The thing is 

This is a parable

And parables are supposed to do something

 

What is it that parables are supposed to do?

What is a parable, anyway?

One thing is that they are NOT complete theologies of God or the Kingdom

If that were the case 

We wouldn’t need so many

Each is concerned with just one aspect at a time

They aren’t meant to be once and for all answers

Rather they reveal glimpses of ‘kingdom logic’

Glimpses…surprising glimpses

 

Parables are supposed to ruffle feathers

MY feathers

 

One way to think about parables is as invitations

 

‘Parabole’

Means to ‘lay along side’

To lay something new alongside what and how I think I know 

This laying alongside functions 

To pull away the curtain…to unveil 

And to reveal something about me…the hearer.

 

So what is the parable laying alongside?

What is this parable revealing about the way I think?

What it the parable inviting me to see?

And what is it offering as an alternative?

 

I am not particularly surprised that God is generous

No…I’m not surprised…In fact…I’m absolutely counting on it!

            

I am not particularly surprised that God is concerned for laborers 

Especially day laborers, who stand in the hot sun all day waiting to be hired so that they can support their families for another day or week…

I am comforted by this too…

And I know, that by virtue of believing in such a God, I can’t just stop there,

I am called to participate in actions that display the same concern…

God-like concern for my neighbors…especially the most vulnerable

This is challenging for sure

It is hard…but not surprising or new

 

Where in the parable is there something that is just 

Phew…uncomfortable surprising?

 

What I am surprised by is WHY the householder was so clear about 

How the laborers were to LINE UP to receive their day’s wages:

 

The landowner says

“Summon the laborers and give them their pay, 

beginning with the last and ending with the first.”

 

I mean why was that direction, to pay the last hired…first

            given so clearly??

 

It was so deliberate that it has to be important

And it isn’t just deliberate…it doesn’t make sense…who would do that!

 

Why not pay the first…first?

They were surely the most tired and sweaty and ready to be done!

 

If the first had been paid first…they would have been on their merry way…

            none the wiser…grumbling averted!

 

The result was absolutely predictable!

The choice to pay the last first simply made it certain 

that there would be grumbling!


All the householder had to do was pay the early hires first

 

Ah…but then this wouldn’t be a parable

 

By reversing the order

The curtain is pulled away to reveal…grumbling

 

Allowing myself to get closer to the text 

Might bring out a more honest response:

 

“Okay, I admit ---- sometimes --- 

when Jesus speaks about God and the Kingdom 

---and he’s throwing around blessing and 

---in this instance, hard earned wages

throwing them around so carelessly…

well sometimes I just feel a bit

well…

RIPPED OFF!”

 

My propensity for grumbling is what is being exposed to the light

I suggest that…in today’s language…the grumbling in this parable

Means resentment

 

“Are you envious because I am generous?”

That is…a very good question!

 

At this point 

It is helpful to glance back a few verses in the Gospel of Matthew

Peter has just asked Jesus a question

It is a question so near to the human heart

Just a few verses ago, Peter asks:

‘Look, we have left everything and followed you.

What then will we have?’

 

It is a reasonable enough question.

Peter just wants to know what kind of Payoff is eventually coming

 

Peter is familiar with the human tendency to put things in such terms:

Inquiring minds want to know: 

Are we talking PAYOFF or RIPOFF?

 

Beneath the surface of Peters question

Jesus hears an attitude that needs re-direction.

In his compassion, Jesus reassures Peter

 

Laboring in the LORD’S vineyard will demand a different way of seeing

Our parable today seems to offer Peter a corrective

 

 

 

I remember counting the presents under the Christmas tree 

when I was a child

I could say that I learned it from my sister

But it came naturally enough

Was I getting a fair PAY-OFF

For being a darling daughter?

Or

Was I getting RIPPED-OFF 

That is…compared to my sisters and brother

 

My guess is that we are hard-wired from the womb

To think in terms of PAYOFF or RIPOFF 

 

They might be little things 

But I tap into this kind of careful accounting several times a day

My guess is that you know what I mean

In the line at the grocery store

Or a friend who bought the same tv I did but got it at half the price

Or how about when someone gets credit for an idea that was mine!?!?

Or when I am not thanked quite loud enough for my obvious generosity!?!?

 

Whenever my internal voice says “Not Fair”

That is a signal of my Payoff-Ripoff mentality kicking in!

 

 

In bigger or smaller ways 

Everyday

My mind sets up the scale 

so that I can measure my world in terms of PAYOFF and RIPOFF

 

I confess all this…knowing that I am not alone;)

It is, I think, in the drinking water!

 

To be fair though

It isn’t that I don’t experience graciousness

I do

Plenty of times…everyday

 

But here is what I do when I am on the receiving end
…the payoff end

Lightening fast…I construct some reason for why I deserved it after all!

I take the giftedness away…and replace it with my ‘deserving’

I keep going with this because I am 99% sure that I am not alone in this???

 

The reason, I think this comes so easily 

Is that Utterly unconditional, unearned, pure, no strings attached…generosity 

is very hard for us to get our heads around.

 

Hard but not impossible!

Therein lies the Good News!  

 

The Good News is NOT simply the domesticated sweetness of a parable that comforts us with the generosity of God

 

As the parable pulls back the curtain on a world---our world--- 

of scales and balanced accounts

it pulls back the curtain

and exposes our propensity for grumbling

It exposes it and It offers something new

 

The Good News is that 

Beyond the stiff world of strictly balanced accounts

 

There is something light and un-burdensome

And we don’t have to wait until we are dead!

 

The householder keeps going to the marketplace

He goes often

from sunup and sundown…punctuating the day with visits  

For the householder…it seems…

It is getting workers into the vineyard that matters!

 

We are all co-workers in the vineyard of the Lord

Morning hires or 11th hour hires

 

Here…to worship…is where we come

Week after week 

we come here to remember who we are

…to remember that we are a body

And that body is Christ’s

And that we are in this together

Chosen first or last or somewhere in between

Here we remember that even though we might suffer daily from creeping resentment…from grumbling

We are not alone

We are granted a fresh start!

 

Even a quick glance at how we worship we can see and understand this

Didn’t we confess…right off the bat?

“we have not loved…we have rebelled…we have refused to hear”

We mean our confession

And we are assured of God’s forgiveness

And when we are sent from here 

We are sent having heard the Good News

And having been invited to let it change and mold us

We are sent with the blessing of everyone gathered here

Sent to participate in the healing of the world

Beginning with the patch most near to us.

 

My friends, where else does this happen?

 

There is an implicit…or maybe it is quite explicit

There is a humility in “Coming to Church”

By the very practice of it 

We admit

We need changing

And We admit that changing takes practice…weekly at least!

 

This week the change called for 

Is to step a little further away from 

The logic of Payoff and Ripoff

To step away from the logic of deserving and undeserving

And to step toward a new alternative

One of graciousness

One of beatitude

 

“Are you envious because I am generous?”

YES…probably a hundred times a day.

 

But…my friends

being here

Admits that we are working on it

And we are working on it…together!

 

 

 

 

 

Saturday, August 29, 2020

Rock or Stumbling Block*

August 30, 2020

22nd Sunday in Ordinary Time

Proper 17

Matthew 16: 21-27

"Get behind me, Satan!"






 

This Gospel is a potent text

It is full of potent language

Language of undergoing great suffering

Language of Satan

Language of denying oneself

Language of taking up a cross

It’s heavy

And…I have so many questions!!!

 

The first question I have is
What is it, exactly, that PETER gets so very wrong?

 

The second one is 
What does it even mean to deny myself?

 

And the third one is 
What does it mean…for me…to take up my cross?

 

 

It isn’t just a matter of my being curious

I love getting into the text…investigating translation issues

Wondering about the 1st-century context

 

But my questions are more fundamental than that…today
…they aren’t just curiousness

 

This reading makes me cringe a little

 

What is it that PETER gets so very wrong?


Jesus’ strong rebuke indicates that PETER has messed up in a very big way

 

7 days ago…in last Sunday’s Gospel

we read the story of “Peter’s Confession”

 

In last Sunday’s Gospel, 
Jesus posed a question to his disciples:

“Who do you say that I am?”

 

And, “top of the class Peter”, replies

“You are the Messiah, the Son of the living God!”

 

And then we heard Jesus say to Peter,

“Bravo Peter! 

Blessed are you! 

Gold star! 

And for that: 

Here are the keys to the kingdom!

YOU ROCK!”

 

It has been a week of days

But, in Gospel time…all that was only three short verses ago!

 

Three short verses later 

we have today’s  STUNNING REVERSAL!

From YOU ROCK to

“Get behind me Satan! You are a stumbling block!”

 

(Our translation says ‘obstacle’ but that loses the original wordplay) 

 

Just a few verses ago, Peter was named ROCK

“You are Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church”

But now he is a different kind of ROCK

He is the kind of rock that causes others to stumble!

 

That is one lightning-fast reversal!

 

So…What DOES Peter get so wrong?

 

This movement from ROCK to Stumbling Block gives us a clue.

To be a stumbling block

You have to be out in the front

And what does Jesus say?

“Get behind me!”

 

WHAT Peter gets wrong is that

He is in the wrong place!

He decided to take the lead from Jesus

He got ahead of Jesus!!!

Being a disciple means to follow

“If you want to become my followers” the text says

If you want to ‘come behind me’

The Greek means literally “if anyone wants to come behind me…”

Well…you best stay there

That’s what it means to be a disciple

A disciple follows

If you jump ahead you will, sooner or later, become a stumbling block

 

What Peter gets wrong is 

Well he is having trouble staying ‘behind’ 

He is having trouble following

…trouble being a disciple

 

But I totally get Peter

He doesn’t want Jesus to “undergo great suffering”

He doesn’t want Jesus to die!

So, he steps out in front to give better directions!

 

I get that.

 

Question number 2

What does it mean to deny myself

 

It can’t mean to deny my being

my personhood

That would be horribly counter to the Incarnation

And good ole modern psychology;)

 

It must mean to deny something else.

 

The most central teaching in Matthews gospel is the Sermon on the Mount

The Sermon on the Mount

With all its talk of being the salt of the earth

And the light of the world

And then the beatitudes

Blessed are the poor

Blessed are those who mourn

Blessed are those who seek righteousness for the sake of the Gospel

Etc.

The Sermon on the Mount is the ethical backdrop of the whole of Matthew’s Gospel

 

What we need to deny

Is whatever it is 

That hinders us

Or that acts like a stumbling block 

Whatever keeps us from the kind of living

   that Jesus lays out in the Sermon on the Mount

And here we can look to the reading from Paul’s letter to the Romans

…It has a “Sermon on the Mount” feel.

Rejoice in hope

Be patient in suffering

Persevere in prayer

Extend hospitality to strangers

Bless those who persecute you

Rejoice with those who rejoice

Weep with those who weep

Do not repay evil for evil

Feed the hungry…even hungry enemies

 

There is a Sermon on the Mount…a Beatitudes, kind of feel to Paul’s words today.

 

Denying myself must mean to deny entry…

…to deny entry into my being

of any evil that will hinder a life lived according to these ideals.

Deny entry…deny them power to define who I am

 

And Question 3
What does it mean…for me…to 

“Take up my cross” 

 

There is so much I don’t know about what this means.

But there is something that I think I know.

 

What I know is that when I get like Peter.

When I think I could do a better job as Premier Christian model to follow;)

 

A bit of a cross is about the only thing that sets me straight.

 

Peter was solely focused on survival

Later, at the crucifixion, 

when he was warming himself by the fire 

and denied Jesus three times until that cock crowed

 

He was focused on survival.

 

You can’t pick up a cross…either your own or someone else’s 

If you are focused on your own survival…

 

To follow

To stay behind

To be a disciple

Means that I will have to go where the Gospel takes me

It is to live a life of compassion…

A life focused on putting another person…or group of persons…ahead of me

Such a life says 

“You…you…are a really important person!”

or “You are a really important group of people”

 

You might say…

Cindy that sounds all nice and gospely

But…please…get practical!

 

None of us need to go looking for crosses

I have never before felt so weighed down by images and stories, and speech witnessing to senseless violence and hatred and ugliness

Right now, it is “other people’s crosses” that confront me

 

I am safe in my little cocoon

Caring for my sweet Dad

And trying to support those in my life who are trying to reboot their professions after being halted by COVID  

And I can do these things

They aren’t crosses

A couple days ago 

I walked with my Dad to a little coffee shop run by a fellow 

“Marchegiana”

Which is what you call others (female-others) who come from Marche

…My father’s home province in Italy

Her name is Catarina

And while we were there

A young girl, 

very tall, very thin, very dirty, she looked Southeast Asian

…perhaps Vietnamese, 

And she carried a plastic grocery sack of belongings

She had this blank vacant stare

 

Seeing the homeless is nothing new for me

Especially in Sarasota

But somehow it was different 

 

She came into the coffee shop

She didn’t have a mask

She didn’t really speak

 

After a minute or two 

Caterina, the owner asked her to wait outside…

There were a few people already there

The cafe is tiny

…And…well it is COVID and she had no mask.

The girl left

 

There I was 

Sitting across from my Dad

With my hot coffee and breakfast sandwich

…I was overcome with grief and sadness for her

 

But I didn’t do anything

Was I too scared?

In my mind, I quickly blamed it on being with my Dad, 

And Covid…of course.

 

But really…if I am honest…

I had survival on my mind

I only say this because I can’t get her face out of my mind

 

I realize that there are a lot of good and logical reasons why I shouldn’t have engaged this poor young woman

But the heart of the matter is that I had survival on my mind

 

After taking care of the few customers waiting and paying, 

Caterina stepped out of her shop and called to her across the street

“Are you hungry? Do you want a muffin?”

But the girl just walked away…maybe she didn’t hear

Maybe she didn’t understand.

 

Caterina said that she has seen her before 

and that all she is able to say is that she is waiting for her mother to come and get her.

 

Did she get stuck in Sarasota, or somewhere near, when all this COVID broke in?

Who is she? What will happen to her?

 

I can remember vividly such times when I failed to help carry another person’s cross

…there have been enough of them. 

And I can remember times when I have also stayed behind 

…in the disciple’s position

And reached out to put the other person first.

Like many of you…I suspect…

I can be both a rock and a stumbling block.

 

I look around

Both close to home and around the country

And see so many opportunities where “putting the other first” is in short supply

And I wonder

Where do I fit?

 

Maybe the answer to that question is a moving target.

Maybe what is being asked of me

Is to respond more like Catarina

…with a bit of boldness 

 

I pray…let me put my own comfort and survival BEHIND ME

So that I will not be a stumbling block for the Gospel

 

 

This homily sounds a bit like a Lent Homily

And in some ways…

COVID-time really is a kind of never-ending LENT;)

 

 

The thing is

I really miss you all

And I think I am struggling 

Because the physicalness of Christian Community is missing 

 

And it is such a gift

A gift AND a real necessity to living out my discipleship

 

Having the opportunity to look you in the eyes just Helps!

You. 

Help me. 

To be a better disciple.

 

Thanks for being the community that you are

In these days of longing!

And let’s just keep praying for one another

 

Lord, help each one of us

To be a bit more Rock

And little less Stumbling Block


Peace be with all of you

I miss you

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


Monday, June 29, 2020

Hovering*

Trinity Sunday - June 7, 2020
 (readings from the RCL)
Genesis 1:1-2; 4a
2 Corinthians 13:11-13
Matthew 28: 16-20



Let’s begin with language from Paul:
“The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ
The love of God
And the communion of the Holy Spirit”
Be with all of you

Today…just saying those words
Slowly and intentionally…in one breath…gives me calm

Do you feel weighed down?
I feel weighed down…and I imagine that Christian Congregations and people everywhere are 
feeling weighed down…
         by grief and anguish…fear…confusion…horror… Or all of the above?

And it causes me to wonder
Is there a WORD?
We are gathering around the Word.
Our sacred scriptures…
Is there a WORD?
I wonder and I hope
On this Trinity Sunday…
LET THERE BE A WORD

Let there be a WORD that speaks to THIS NOW?


We just read the last three verses of Paul’s letter to the Corinthians
This is the end of a very emotional letter
Throughout the letter Paul is trying to keep his passions in check
It is both stern and loving…a tricky balance to achieve 
He names the community’s vices in Ch 12
I imagine him with his finger in their faces
Quarreling, jealousy, anger, selfishness, slander, gossip, conceit, and disorder”
The place is torn by factions

Into this moment in the life of the Corinthian community
He speaks a challenging word of unity and love
“Put things in order”
C’mon you know what’s essential and what’s not!
“Listen to my appeal”
“Agree with one another” 
Okay…that’s sounds pie in the sky
but Paul isn’t after uniformity
He just got finished praising the diversity of gifts in the community
so its not uniformity…but rather, 
Together, my dear Corinthians, we must figure out how to speak according to Christ…that must be the goal

‘And then…all in one breath:

The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ
The love of God
And the communion of the Holy Spirit
Be with all of you

Paul has a word for us today


And what about Genesis?
We learned in Old Testament class 
That there were many creation stories floating the ancient near east at the same time…
They were full of violent melodramas playing out in the heavens between many fickle deities.
Lots of violence and trickery…one god pushing the other jockeying for power
SO… what makes this creation story in Genesis 1 so radical
is that it is blatantly monotheistic

In Genesis ONE we have ONE God 
One God who presides over the chaos and intervenes
(the text is notoriously difficult to translate)

It begins in chaos 
The world was a wild chaos
It resonates doesn’t it?
Sounds like a world that could kill you

But there is more than the wild chaos
It is subtle…you could miss it if you aren’t careful

There is a breath from God
Ruach is Hebrew
Pneuma in Greek
In English we might say breath, wind or spirit

This breath…it …seems so tiny against a raging chaotic water…doesn’t it?

Some translations use the words hovering, or fluttering and evoke a gentleness
A gentle fluttering breath, 
God’s breath, moving gently atop the waters of chaos
It may be gentle 
but it is NOT weak
It is steady and committed
It is gentle breath…hovering…for the long haul

This steady breath of God, blows and pushes
In one direction toward a horizon.

What does this mean?
The chaos…the colliding currents and crashing waves 
Are hovered over
hovered over by a breath blowing gently but relentlessly in one direction
Toward a horizon 
It is the horizon that St Paul paints for us in such beautiful language…
The horizon IS:
the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ,
the Love of God,
and the Communion of the Holy Spirit!”  


This week we have continued to witness many images that linger in our minds eye
Many many images of chaos
Of torture and destruction
Of grief and anger
Of threats and boisterous blaming
Of frustration
Of death
And scattered within these many many images
There are some…Though all too few
I have seen a few
A courageous few
A reconciling few
A gentle few
A fluttering few
Not a weak few
But a strong few

And I have been asking myself:
Will I give myself over to this relentless gentleness?
How will I participate in this small subtle movement directed by the breath of God?
And if I do, will I be fruitful and multiply?

If my answer is a resolved YES
I believe I will be reaching toward the place of Paul’s promise…
I will be reaching towards: 
The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ
The love of God
And the communion of the Holy Spirit.


And the Gospel
I noticed something I’ve never noticed before
In our Gospel reading, traditionally called the Great Commission
I noticed that the “who” in the text… is the eleven
The eleven not the twelve because…you know JUDAS.
In the verses just before,
the risen Jesus has told Mary Magdalene and the other Mary
to go and tell the disciples to meet him as they planned.
And now they are gathered 
on a mountain 
(because everything important in Matthew’s Gospel happens on a mountaintop)
And then we have this:
When they saw him they worshipped him; but they also doubted
(Our translation says ‘some doubted’ but the consensus is that it is best read “but they also doubted”)
It makes a big difference…doesn’t it?

If it is some 
I find myself wondering am I a worshipper or a doubter
But if it is “they also doubted”
Then I can be both…and that rings true
I feel sometimes like both

The eleven are both
And they still get authority
Because the authority is supported by the final gift
A gift that belongs to all of us
“I am with you always, to the end of the age.”

Matthew’s Gospel began with the infant Jesus called Immanuel
“God with us”
And it ends the same way
“I am with you always, to the end of the age.”
These are bookends
They are heavy
They keep everything grounded and together

Jesus says:
I am with you
And HOW am I with you?
I am like a gentle but relentless breath hovering over the chaos
Where can you find me?

Wherever you catch a view of that horizon!
Wherever you glimpse
The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ
The love of God
And the communion of the Holy Spirit.

That’s how I am with you
And that’s where you can find me


May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ
The love of God 
And the communion of the Holy Spirit
Be with you always
Until the end of the age